This past Sunday afternoon, I sat in my kitchen and cried. The last two months have been hard, and COVID-19 is just the cherry on top.
Waves of stress and anxiety have crashed into my life and I’ve felt like I haven’t been able to come up for a single breath of air: finances, relationships, work, COVID-19, faith…everything you can think of.
Being at home for five straight days last week, you’d think I was able to take a breather, sleep in a few mornings, relax, spend one on one time with Joe. Not really.
The COVID-19 pandemic was all we talked or heard about since I came home Tuesday night from work. It didn’t matter what we did, there it was. I was so ready for Sunday online service with Pearl Street Church. I just needed one hour of worship and listening to God’s word, but sucky internet won that battle.
That afternoon, Joe worked outside while the dogs chased vehicles along the fence line and our newest fur baby slept in one of our kitchen cupboards. My internet still wasn’t working, so I couldn’t watch Netflix. Instead, I turned on my “Becca’s Go-To” playlist, which consists of my favorite worship songs, and started cleaning my kitchen. Two songs in, the waterworks began. In the song “Oh My Soul” by Casting Crowns, they sing:
“Oh my soul, you are not alone / There’s a place where fear has to face the God you know / One more day, He will make a way / Let Him show you how, you can lay this down / ‘Cause you’re not alone.”
Those words cut deep in my soul. I have been feeling alone, feeling lost, feeling hopeless. An hour prior to that, I had spoken to my mom about everything bothering me and how I had been feeling. Her response? “You have deep faith in God. Don’t forget that.”
Her words resonated with me as the song played. I was reminded how good of a faithful and merciful, heavenly Father I have and that I am not alone.
The stress, anxiety, worry and fear that comes with everyday life is enough to make one feel alone. The COVID-19 pandemic and social distancing can only make one feel even more so. However, we are not alone. We have family, friends and a loving God who never leaves, especially in times of need. These are extremely stressful times and we need each other now more than ever. Also, we have a powerful God who will get us through this. Just have faith and know that you are not alone.
REBECCA PESQUEDA is the News Editor of the Pleasanton Express. You may reach her at email@example.com.